Imagine- John Lennon(Lyrics)

Don't be fooled by the wrapping, people are so much more than  what they look like or what they do!!

It all comes down to one thing....LOVE!!!!

It is not about what we do!!
Not about what we have!!
It is about who we Love and how we Love!!
Much LOVE and Light!!!

"The practice of forgiveness is our most important contribution to the healing of the world." Marianne Williamson

"Love is what we were born with. Fear is what we learned here."
Marianne Williamson

My Perception on Life's synchronicity!

I have heard it said that there are no accidents, and that everything happens for a reason. I believe this to be true! I am now looking closely at the things that are going on in my life and recognizing the synchronicity that is taking place. Just the other day I took my oldest son to the store to purchase some new shoes. A person never quite knows what might happen when they step out their door to run some errands. To me it can be like comparing the unknown of the day, to waking up as a child on Christmas morning. The anticipation the not knowing, and the wonderment of the gifts under the tree, just waiting to be opened. Life is filled with these gifts from God! After my son purchased his shoes we left the store and drove to Wal-Mart to finish our shopping. While there my son picked out a package of socks to go with his new shoes. Then we continued over to the grocery side of the store to pick up a few needed items. When we reached the vegetable aisle there was an older woman standing in front of the canned vegetables she had a cute little girl with her riding in the cart. The little girl was writing down the price of green beans. My son asked the woman if the girl liked math. She said “yes she does, in fact she is a genius when it comes to math!” She then proceeded to tell us that the girl was her granddaughter and that she had Asperger’s. I told her that my son also has Asperger’s and was diagnosed with it while he was in the 5^th grade. We then discussed how they had both had been on medication. His psychologist thought it would be a good idea and we did not argue with her about it. About 6 months later we took him off of the meds because they were doing more harm to him than good. In hindsight we would not have put him on it at all but at the time we thought that we were doing what was in his best interest. I then told the women how I had deep feelings of guilt for a long time and thought that I had done something wrong and that my son was cursed because of it. I explained to her that it took me a long time to come to terms with this and to see things the way they truly were. My sons Autism diagnosis is a gift, not a curse or a disease! God does not curse us or punish us and I had not caused it!  We had a wonderful conversation with the woman and her beautiful, gifted little granddaughter. I have no idea how long we stood there in that aisle and talked to the two of them but, it was great! My son later told me it was so relaxing to be able to talk to someone like himself. Later that evening my husband and I hurried out to take the Redbox movies back to the machine. There were only a few minutes before the deadline of 9:00. He pulled up as close to the machine as possible and I quickly got out of the car and ran up to the Redbox. There was a man standing there and he kindly told me I could go ahead of him. This man seemed strangely familiar to me but, I was not sure why. He then asked me what movies I was returning. Upon telling him the titles he said he did not know either one of the movies.  I pointed to the sign and told him one of the movies was about a woman named Temple Grandin who was diagnosed with Autism. I then told him that my son had Autism Asperger’s. He then proceeded to tell me that he had Asperger’s.  My thought was I have now met two people in one day who have the same diagnosis as my son. After talking with him for a few minutes I remembered why he looked so familiar. This was actually the third time in about 2 weeks that I had seen this man. The first two times were at my weekly stop at Goodwill to look for inspiring books. After saying goodbye to the man and wishing him a good evening I started thinking. Then, this idea came into my head about starting a support group, or friendship group here for people who have been diagnosed with Autism/Asperger’s. If anything, just to have others meet and get to know each other, to know that they are not alone! I am so grateful for this synchronicity and many more that have been happening in my life. This is my healing, my story, and just one woman’s perception.

My Darkness turned to light

                                                           

I was lost and in the dark

I thought I would fall apart

I was terrified felt worthless, and alone

Sitting in a pit of my own making

You reached down and took my hand

Your love surrounding me like a warm blanket of light

Oh such love filled my heart

You pulled me up and opened my eyes

I came to learn and realize, what an amazing world this can be

No more hiding in the dark, confused and torn apart

Now my body is filled with light and no longer so uptight.

The wonders all around me fill my soul with gratitude

Once there was only dark and now there is light

There was fear and now there’s joy

So much in life there is to explore

A message I implore, Freedom through, Faith, Trust and Love

You see love is all there really is

So open up your heart and let it in

Freedom, Faith, Hope and Love are sent from up above

So open up your heart and let it in

I wrote this a few months before my husband (Rob) returned home from a deployment in Kosovo  in late 2008. It is an insight into my life and what I had created before and what I now know. Going through this allowed me to realize a lot of different things, for which I am truly grateful, and also showed me how special my angel children are and how to have a loving and more understanding relationship with them. In learning and growing I realize they have so much to teach me! I am extremely grateful for all of my experiences!