Seeing Life in Another Color

It may appear to most people looking from the outside in, that the world is filled with chaos, darkness and fear everything that could be going wrong, is. How could it not when it appears that everything around us is falling apart? Things seem to be getting worse, relationships coming to an end right and left. People are losing their jobs and their sense of security. Countries are at war many people starving, and more, and more losing their homes and their possessions. For some it may also feel as though they're losing a sense of self. Emotions seem right on the surface and there is no controlling them. It feels as though people don’t have any control at all.

One of the biggest questions; what is going on? In the past, people went to school, went to college, and for the most part secured a job that they would work at until they retired. This does not seem to be the way anymore. More and more people are being laid off or fired. Our family has experienced this first hand. My husband was let go from his job due to health conditions back in January of this year. He was the main source of income to this family.

This was a blessing in disguise but, at the time it occurred, it felt far from it.

In this world it comes down to those “feelings” doesn’t it? How we feel or don’t feel about something or someone. Feelings are what can cause us to react or to choose to create. We may at the time be so deep into a situation that reacting appears to be a natural thing. This is a way that many have lived for most of their lives. I know that for me, reacting was almost always the way things were handled, and I am still working through that. If anything in my life took place that felt contrary to what I thought it should, I would get very upset. You could even say that I would get depressed. I did not feel that there was an alternative way to handle most situations and just felt like the world was out to get me. I have since learned that there is always a choice and there is also a gift in every experience in this life, we just don’t always see it that way.

We can in the moment of a challenge stop, take a step back, and look at the situation that is occurring, view it with a different perception. When we take that moment it gives us a chance to see it for what it truly is.  More often than not, we will see and experience a situation in a different way. My husband losing his job is a good example. This was a huge thing for our family and it felt as though the rug was completely pulled out from under us. In that moment it appeared like our whole world had come crashing down. What were we going to do? There was no more job and very little money in the bank.

From one perspective it looked as though we were finished. However looking at it in a different way this was a huge blessing! Since returning from Kosovo my husband had not been happy at his job. Not only could I see it but it was felt very strongly. On his return he had decided that he wanted to go back to college and finish his nursing degree to achieve becoming an RN with BSN. We were not sure how he was going to accomplish this. My husband had gone back to school in 2004 for 2 years to get his nursing degree. He graduated with an LPN and then continued the following year to complete his RN. Due to many different factors he was not able to finish. The time that he was in school seemed to us like a huge sacrifice and financially we felt it. I can now see that all though we did not have a lot of money while he was in school we were always taken care of. Our family had everything that we needed and a few things that we wanted as well. Things just seemed to work out. However I did not see it that way back then nor did I feel very secure. All that I saw was that we were struggling and wondering when it was going to end.

This is why after his return from deployment he wrestled with the idea of returning to school. Because of these concerns he continued to work at his job. Every once in a while he would mention something about maybe, possibly going back and finishing his degree. The thought of what had taken place before was a big deterrent for him. He decided to put those thoughts on the back burner and continue on with his job. In January of 2011 everything changed. shortly after his arrival home from deployment in 2009 he was diagnosed with diabetes, amongst other things. For a few years he was able to control it through meds, diet and exercise. In January that all changed. His blood sugar levels increased tremendously. The day he was taken into the ER while at work his levels could not be measured they were so high. When his office got word that he was being put on insulin, he was let go.

Why do I share all of this with you? If looked at through fearful eyes and thoughts this can be seen and experienced as a horrible thing. Looked at through another perception it was a gift. When my husband was let go from the job that he no longer enjoyed this freed him to go back to school, to accomplish what it is he desired most.

This world is changing the people on it are changing and there's so much more love and light now. Even when it seems as though things are getting worse and we are experiencing many earth- shattering changes in this world. We can stop, observe and look at life through a different perception we can see and experience the wonderful changes taking place. This is much like seeing the beautiful colors of the rainbow after, and even during a storm. If we can see that the storm is as beautiful as the rainbow we will be able to experience our lives in a different color.